Jul 6, 2008
Hello, new freinds, whats my mind tonite, many things, gratefulness, for finding this site, hope, because of the people that really do show empathy, and caring by taking time out to encourage, or direct, or just listen and you know you are not alone. A little sad and frustrated, about my mouth, and I know there are many out there, sick, frustrated, running out of ways to plead with those who could help those in need.. But pain of anykind is a motivator at least for me, not to give up.. a day for me begins with waking up feeling sick, but I will not give up. Some days I will not put my top denture in at all, and wonder if I will wake up and the 7 years will have been a horrible nightmare. But it is reality, I honestly do my very best not to think about it. You tell me how can you not think about your mouth, and not being able to chew few correctly, and not think of you smouth with you are continuely swallowing saliva, that is acid and me making me sick.. I get really angry at times with my self, and say get over it, and then I begin to weep, because I want to be over it, I want to be a useful and funtional human being. I feel like I'm robbed as well as the many others that cannot get their mouth taken care of because of immense cost, and Medicare and med-cal arent doing anything, they have made 2 sets of dentures in 7 years, with out ever telling me about my messed up mouth. I can't stand feeling sorry for my self and most of time I stay busy, and most of all try and think of ways to bring comfort for others, but I'm feeling extra nauseaus tonite, it mayb be from the bacteria I get from teeth in out over and over, or from sports mouth guard I had to cut to fit in my mouth, and its made to go over teeth. that cant even be in long so in and out more bacteria, I apolagize for feeling a little of out of sorts, those have gotten to know me some thru my posts, blogs, and even i started a new group today, I love to write and and to help people and make people understand the importance of not giving up or losing hope.. I almost always feel better when I look on here, and see someone has read something on aidpage. and I pray, that some how at least there mood is better. I bet you never thougtht I could be short in my writing. Ive spent more houres writing on various postings and reaing about then in different groups, then anything else. I need sleep. So if I can stay off here a short period and catch some rest I'll be able to fight this mood. Have my mind more clear, and get back to reading more peoples plights and encourage or research... God bless all of you, Never Never give up, and try not to lose hope even when all seems hopeless. There is a solution for every problem, just takes time sometimes... You are of value, no matter who you are or what you have, you were born, and your here now and you are a unique individual with gifts to ois ffer others you havent even discovered.. Pray for me tummy, It will pass, i will shareanother day anther time. Good nite and God bless. Maybe tomorrow , I will wake un not sick, and with dentures that fit and 6 implants, well or maybe the next day.. Right now Im going to look at a few others postings and pray for them and try and get some sleep.. I hope you check out under my group heading and give me some feedback... Good nite
Help me, please normally I 'm the one who is the encourger and loves to help, now I'm having a turn, at desperation, which it has been many years , since I felt so close to feel so close this horribldj hopelesks, I can feel it breathing on me.. SORRY ABOUT THE TITLE, I COULDNT GO AND CORRECT THE END OF IT, YOU WILL UNDERSTAND IF YOU READ THIS OR ANY OF MY POSTS! PLEASE, PLEASE, IM GETTING RUMDUM FROM TRYING TO FIND THE RIGHT WORDS, THIS IS REALITY, THAT JUST ISN'T PIC OF SOME ONE I KNOW THAT IS ME, WITH A FAKE SMILE, AND WITH A TOP DENTURES ONLY THAT CAME OUT SHORTLY AFTER PIC, AND MY LAST POST I HAVE A PICTURE OF ME WITH TEETH, ITS TITLEED NOT ABOUT COSMETIC SUREGEY SOMETHING LIKE THAT, BUT I HAVE NO TEETH IN THAT PIC. HONESTY UNTILL I STARTED TAKING PICS FOR THIS SITE, AND I TOOK SEVERAL WITH OUT TEETH, PEOPLE OUR RIGHT I COULD LIVE WITH HOW I LOOK, IT IS NOT ABOUT THAT, PLEASE UNDERSTAND, I HAVE NO IDEDA WHY INSURANCE COMPANYS THINK ORAL IMPLANTS OR COSMETIC, BECAUSE ME OTHERS LIKE ME ARE IN NEED OF THEM NOT WANT. NEED YOU NO IDEA HOW MANY HOURES I HAVE LOGGED ON HERE TRYING TO FIND A WAY TO GET MY IMPLANTS , SO I DONT END UP WITH CANCER IN MY ESPHAGAS AND I WONT BE NAUSEATED DAY AND NITE, AND THROWING UP PART OF THE TIME. IM TIRED, IM GOING GIVE THIS A REST, BUT I WILL BE BACK AND I WILL KEEP WRITING UNTIL SOMEONE WILL AT LEAST CHECK INTO MY PROBLEM, AND SEE CHECK OUT WHAT I HAVE SAID. i DONT MIND I WELCOME IT. I DONT WANT YOUR MONEY, NOT ONE DIME, 6 IMPLANTS AND BOTTOM AND TOP DENTURES, THE TOP CAN'T HAVE THE PALET PART THATS WHY I NEED THE 4 IMPLANTS UP THERE. I LIVE IN CALIF. I NEED GET OFF HERE IM STARTING TO WRITE IN CIRCLES.. THANK YOU AGAIN, FOR ANY TIME YOU SPEND AT LEAST READING MINE AND OTHERS PLIGHTS. I look like a pretty happy woman, well its joy not happiness, and those are top dentures, that I wear for very, very short amout of time. I is not cosmetic surgey, I dont care if thats what they call it I have pictures of my self without teeth, I had one posted yesterday, and people say they can hardly tell, but its because I Need them, to function, to have normalcy in my life again. If it wasn't for God in my lifte, I'll be painfully honest, I would have taken my life by now. I have barrettas esphagas, which is precancer of esphaagas, I have a long ulcer history going back to when I was 16, when I had bleeding ulcers, I had ulcers in my esphagas a few years back, and then was diagosed with the Barrettas, at this point it is precancer, but with out dentures that can be worn in my mouth, I am swallowing acid all the time, and am nauseous and throw up. I went thru 2 sets of dentures, before I found out it was my mouth that was messed up not the dentures, I am on medi-cal, if I had had reg dental, maybe I would have found out sooner. I just found out about 2 months ago from repuable dentist, and paying a consultation fee, that the top of my mouth is made wrong, who knew, there is a name what I didnt write it down, and because of that and my small mouth, and strong gag refex which which in my case is located right on the part of the top of my mouth where the back of the denture normally rests, so I have multi problems, and the dentist said he could do nothing with my the top, and said they could possible fix the bottom with 2 implants, this is with out exrays yet. and I was crying, and he said that I should go see a specalist in mouth problems/dentures. So I did another consultation fee, but larger, and this man was equally as kind and gracious as the other. He gave me futher hope, he also explain